Blessed - divinely or supremely favoured
Lucky - having good fortune; receiving good from uncertain or unexpected sources Definitions from Dictionary.com
I am incredibly fortunate, lucky and/or blessed, but I have no idea why.
Is it because I sneeze so frequently and people are always saying “Bless you”? Or is it just part and parcel of white privilege, something I was born into? Was I a martyr in a previous life? Or is it all simply random chance and I have been dealt a winning hand?
It seems really unfair sometimes, that my life has been so “charmed”. Don’t get me wrong, I am not complaining, it’s just that I can’t help but feel guilty. How come things seem to work out for me while others who are more deserving get dumped on?
A few months ago, when I was feeling particularly grateful for my life, I clicked on the little status emoticon on Facebook that said “Feeling blessed”. The smiley face even had a little halo on it. A few friends commented and I realized that it came across as “blessed” as in divinely favoured. I really don’t want to be “divinely favoured”. The Divine should not have favourites! And if the Divine has favourites, I don’t deserve to be one! I never liked being the “teacher’s pet”.
So, I am going with pure luck, random chance. I am just so damn lucky!